Addiction

Hey, guys. I know it's Friday, so you have free time. Come sit down for second.

Sit down, right over here. That's right. We need to have a talk.

Even though I joke about how addicted I was to FFXI, looking back, it was a bit scary.

Any addiction seems scary in hindsight, but the fact that I didn't even know it was an addiction is what frightens me the most.

I wasn't lying at all when I said I would wake up in the morning and play until I fell asleep.

That was my life for a good while.

It caused problems with my family. I almost got into a fistfight with my mom's boyfriend over it.

But I didn't see anything wrong. I was just playing a game. Having a gay old time.

Happy time. Having a happy time.

Nothing gay about my time.

I was eventually shipped out to Louisiana because I was just lying around all day playing. When I started working and could afford it, I got the game again and starting doing the same thing.

Come home from work, and play all day.

Some days I wouldn't eat and the act of just sitting there playing would make me physically ill when I tried to stand up, so I would stay home from work the next day and play again.

It wasn't until I moved to Miami and literally COULDN'T play that I started realizing there was more to life than playing, and I eventually stopped playing altogether.

Now, you may be wondering why I always talking so fondly of XI even though I realize now that it was hurting not only me, but the people around me.

Well, to tell you the truth, those years were some of the best years of my life. I made a lot of friends, some of which I still talk to today. I genuinely had fun.

There's a video by HappyConsoleGamer that I think everyone that has played or still does play needs to watch. It's 21 minutes long, so set aside some time, but trust me, it's worth it.

This video hit me so hard because he went through exactly what I did, and it was really shocking to see that I wasn't the only one who was addicted that badly.

I don't mean to bash everyone over the head with reality with these last few posts. You came to this blog probably for poop jokes and fart noises.

That will be tomorrow's post.

But I thank everyone for hearing me out, and if you do feel yourself having an addiction to anything, please, please, talk to someone and get help before you hurt yourself or the ones you love.

Now if you'll excuse me, I have some Warframe to play.